of dogs and blogs
Wednesday, November 30, 2005 ~ 10:00 PM
this one's a newer blog since the other is a co-authored blog and a blog that talks more about emotions. well, the first post talks about emotions too ayt? nah. the other blog is a love blog. this one's a more personal one.
welcome to my blog and see the other side of me. hehe.
this sunday, my most beloved dog passed away. naghihingalo sya from 12 noon to 3:45, when she died. it's heartbreaking to see her dying in front of me. pero hindi ako umalis. nung 12 noon pinapainom namin sya ng tubig pero ayaw na nyang lumunok. early signs. when at 3:45 i stood up para magtimpla ng gatas nya, eksakto pagtayo ko nakita sya ng tatay ko having her last breath. i rushed back para makita syang mamatay.
nakakaiyak dahil umiyak ang buong pamilya ko nang namatay sya as if apat kaming magkakapatid at nawala ang isa.
ayun. she was buried the day after she died sa likod-bahay. nakakahiya man, i still say babay to her tuwing umaalis ako ng bahay.
haaay. mahirap lang talagang mawalan ng kasama mo ng apat na taon. lalo na kung katabi mo syang matulog gabi gabi. wala na ring mag-eenjoy tuwing dumarating ako. simple pleasures in life na nakakamiss.
as i've said, this blog's not an emotional blog.
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Saturday, November 26, 2005 ~ 7:56 PM
hatred. old feelings coming up all of a sudden. i hate it. i've hated it for the longest time. i'm becoming to feel numb. i just wish i am. then we go back to the same old motherfucking issue. and settle for the nth time. then brawl again with the same sonafabitch issue. the hell. i don't wanna post these sentiments here. i've realized both of us haven't healed our wounds yet. we simply can't help it. i'm too coward to open up the topic with you, gaya ng karuwagan mong sagutin ang mga tanong ko. this is bull.
makes me feel wish i'm not sakuragi.
goodluck to your law school exam. i know you're gonna confront me about this. i just need an outlet.